RUT

I haven't gotten out of bed for two days, except to go to the store, or make some tea.

My nose won't stop tickling, and I feel as if I'm about to sneeze all the time. My roommates are lazy and won't go buy some god damn toilet paper when we need it. I think I need to make a chore chart or something. It's just getting ridiculous.

I'm not in a very good place right now. I feel really lonely. I keep reliving past moments in my head. That stirs up more emotions and jealousy. I don't have anyone out here right now. I'm not moving home because I know I'm meant to be out here. I'm just not meant to be in Buffalo. I've been applying for jobs in NYC.


I don't know things just piled up when I left, and it's getting really really hard to keep doing all of this.