RUT

I haven't gotten out of bed for two days, except to go to the store, or make some tea.

My nose won't stop tickling, and I feel as if I'm about to sneeze all the time. My roommates are lazy and won't go buy some god damn toilet paper when we need it. I think I need to make a chore chart or something. It's just getting ridiculous.

I'm not in a very good place right now. I feel really lonely. I keep reliving past moments in my head. That stirs up more emotions and jealousy. I don't have anyone out here right now. I'm not moving home because I know I'm meant to be out here. I'm just not meant to be in Buffalo. I've been applying for jobs in NYC.


I don't know things just piled up when I left, and it's getting really really hard to keep doing all of this.

My current obsessions...

MMMM

Vanilla candles glowing softly and slowly perfuming the room.

A glass of red wine caressing my taste buds.


...And laundry.

Cleaning before my godparents get here tomorrow!! Woo!

Also this song makes me feel incredibly sexy.




Like... cyborg eye sexy. Ohhhh yea...