Random loves of life...

Beautiful

It is possible to love someone you don't know this much? Cuuuzzz I kind of worship the ground this beautifully powerful woman walks on. Love. Her.

Nervous!

I start tutoring today. I'm really nervous actually. I don't really remember a lot from training so I'm going to go over my materials. I need to pick up some highlighters too. There are so many things on my mental To-Do List right now!

-Highlighters
-Quote for health insurance
-Sign up for second temp agency
-Deposit pay check from 1 day assignment
-Change the plates on the "new" car.
-Pack some clothes just in case I end up staying at Noam's tonight
-Write a message to my housemates telling them Noam will be coming over on Saturday
-Do some freaking laundry!
-Do the dishes
-Take out the trash

And some more stuff I can't think of right now. =)

Last night I applied for an Administrative Assistant position at the Food Network. I want this job more than anything. It's in New York, and it's with the freaking FOOD NETWORK!!! It would be amazing if I could work my up, and achieve my dream of becoming a food writer. Heck, even being any kind of executive with the Food Network would be amazing. It just made me realize how close my goals are to me, and how I really can achieve what I want in life! So I'm going to be creating a separate blog on here about food. My housemates and I are doing The Biggest Loser challenge in our apartment so I'm trying to eat more healthy foods. Hopefully this new blog will allow me to do that, and refine my food writing skills.



I'm so excited to explore this path!! I am most definitely going to take some cooking classes. I need to revamp a copy of my resume and cover letter, and I need more writing samples. I also need to check the mail to see if Giada's cookbook has arrived yet. I want this more than anything right now, and I really hope it happens.

The only thing that scares me about this opportunity is that I will for certain be in New York for a very long time. That is where the Food Network is, and where pretty much all publishing agencies are. So with Noam wanting to stay in D.C., and me being in New York, I'm a bit worried about how things will turn out. However, all I can do is send prayers and positive future vibes into the world. I want to hold faith in whatever higher being lies in the stars, and that there is no way our achievements will brings us apart.

Back to the more important matter though: I AM SO EXCITED! I was sitting in bed this morning, and it just all clicked. I need to keep applying for jobs like this, I need to write more, I need to MOVE!

I need a job here first to even think about moving. I think I might get a Barista job somewhere. I need some work to support myself right now. I pretty much have enough for this month's rent and that's about it. I don't think my tutoring will be able to pay for it all, so I'll have to find other options. I really want to work mornings too because that would make my schedule purrrfect. We'll see what happens.
...With everything.



Now I must get out of my very warm bed, and start this crazy day!


I hope this kid is in my class...

This week has been... well pretty terrible to be honest, but then I got to see Noam last night.

It sounds silly, or at least he would say it sounds silly, but when he opened the door, my frustrations washed away. I felt his soft quick kiss, and everything was better. We were going to a dinner with his best friend's parents. Which is interesting considering I've never eve had a sit down dinner with Noam's parents, but no matter.

As we left for Mike's house he stopped at the door, turned towards me, and gave me a kiss that was so many things. It was not a fierce kiss, but it was not as soft as the first. It was caring and warm. It made every grievance I had frozen solid inside of me thaw and melt away. Then he squeezed my hand and told me he missed me. What could be better than that? Seeing the person you love and having them dissolve every angry cell in your body into love.

I can't think this, or remind myself enough: I am so SO completely head over heels, backwards, can't find my way out nor do I want to- in love.



It's a really special time for me right now. I talk about it this relationship a lot, but that's because this is the only thing that's been steady lately. It seems that everything in my life these days has been thrown into the air by a tornado and is currently twisting and turning all around me. But this, this is steady and planted. Its roots are growing deeper, and I hope they continue to dig deep. I never want them to be pulled up. I hope this stability with Noam will remain in my life for a long time.

So we can do this in Italy...



Goodnight moon...