RUT

I haven't gotten out of bed for two days, except to go to the store, or make some tea.

My nose won't stop tickling, and I feel as if I'm about to sneeze all the time. My roommates are lazy and won't go buy some god damn toilet paper when we need it. I think I need to make a chore chart or something. It's just getting ridiculous.

I'm not in a very good place right now. I feel really lonely. I keep reliving past moments in my head. That stirs up more emotions and jealousy. I don't have anyone out here right now. I'm not moving home because I know I'm meant to be out here. I'm just not meant to be in Buffalo. I've been applying for jobs in NYC.


I don't know things just piled up when I left, and it's getting really really hard to keep doing all of this.

My current obsessions...

MMMM

Vanilla candles glowing softly and slowly perfuming the room.

A glass of red wine caressing my taste buds.


...And laundry.

Cleaning before my godparents get here tomorrow!! Woo!

Also this song makes me feel incredibly sexy.




Like... cyborg eye sexy. Ohhhh yea...

WHAI am I up so late? I do not understand why I am doing theeeesss?! Oh right, because I went to a play and didn't have time to use the interwebs like I usually do. Am I an interwebs addict? Oh noes. Maybe I needs a 12 step programs? I DUNNOZ. This is a true crackhead post. Now I must go read the new Mark Reads Harry Potter post, and I must shuffle on over to sleep. MMM sleeeeeep! Ah I have an interview tomorrow too!! WHAIII?!

Blah

Ugggghhhh, fuckin douche. I'm still not over it, and I'm still mad. I suppose it's easy for people to never change. I truly hate that side of him. Which sucks because the other side is flipping fantastic. However, you judge a person by their worst, and THAT is not the person I knew.

Aaaaannd cut- I'm done. Emo moment, I'm back. I met a guy that couldn't keep his eyes off of me on Friday. A cute guy. =P He's way too old for me, which I found out after I gave him my number (DOH), but hey, it was nice to flirt and very nice to be finally be appreciated. =)

Also, I can't stop listening to this song:

The Essence of Babums

Me being me. Herro.